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why not? listen from "blood, love, and boomerangs" respectfully dedicated to the late Bob Flanagan, Supermasochist because love is stale and sometimes this is all there is because the edge of the day has worn thin with repetition because tonight hasn't happened before it's immediate and unsure because I want to because I want you because of something primal and substantial that I can't escape for long because I catch myself thinking about it in elevators and washroom stalls because of the excitation of breath because of your late-night voice on the telephone because this conversation isn't about words anymore because things are said without words because I feel like I've been here before and there's something I want to remember because I want to make sure I remember how because I don't remember who or when because my guard against myself is down because there will never be another you -- at least not tonight because you're not like the others -- but then neither were they because I want to make some noise because I want to compensate for the moments of silence because of quiet and deliberate movement because of the immediacy of touch because of the salt taste of sweat at your throat because there is skin and flesh is pliable because the taste of the flesh is an experiment in sound because of the way muscle counters muscle because of the shallow hollow at your hip where bone and flesh merge because I've got a secret and some secrets I can't keep because I'm learning to tie knots because I want to surprise you because I want to be surprised because of my taste on your mouth because of your mouth because there's a trick with my mouth I'm learning to do because I want to hear you moan when you least expect it because I'm stronger than you think because we all have moments of predatory attitude all have moments when we want to be pursued because it's less likely to cause shin splints than fast running because I'm really very tired but you could convince me because it's better entertainment than late-night tv because the night is young and I mostly am too because life is short and death is inevitable but that shouldn't slow you down because the body runs out and then where will you be? because Keith Haring died when he was younger than I am and Bob Flanagan wasn't much older because there is loss and a need to compensate because some animals mate for life but humans are rarely one of them because when there is flesh sex is inevitable because whether sinner or saint we all have genitalia because it's winter and I don't want to be cold because it's summer and sweat makes skin slick because of the way your slick dick slips inside me mercilessly complete and deep because you're so thin   with luck you might slip right in because you don't require batteries because of candle wax and music and the living room floor because the Blue Nile is only a tributary and your touch becomes an embrace becomes a kiss because the sands at night are that smooth and shape the landscape like flesh because your arms become an oasis against anger   against bitterness because you never said you loved me -- but then you never said you didn't because I am still an embarrassingly naive romantic at times because I want to live happily ever after because fairy tales end too soon because I've seen this in the movies because Bacall said You know how to whistle don't you, Steve? You just put your lips together and blow, and Bogart's reaction was so open it couldn't have been acting because We'll always have Paris because Anais Nin said Women are more apt to fuse sex with emotion   and I believe her because Dietrich was that exotic and Ute Lemper performs like a Weimar cabaret star a reminder that there is nothing new under the sun that all this cross-dressing   gender bender transsexually suppressed transgression buggery   adultery   enema thrill bound and gagged and leather flagged has all been done before because of sex toys and latex and leather because there's pornography on the internet and the back pages of entertainment papers because the pain of your teeth causes a shock of excitation to ripple through my body just above the skin because I'm not sure I could eat enough chocolate to release this level of endorphins because my nocturnal emissions are too often cerebral because for years I've been asocial asexual and enigmatic because days go by before I realize I haven't spoken to anyone because it's too easy to forget the physical because I want to be in this flesh but not of it because the line between fantasy and reality is such a fragile convention because the idea of a rigid heterosexual norm is a modernist construct because Freud's model is too angular and I'm not because if I ever get married I want to do it cross-dressed I want to wear the tux you'd look lovely in a delicious swirl of virginal white don't you think? because I want to be enveloped in the wings of angels but you'll have to do for now because I don't want to wake up alone because I want to watch you sleep because of the way morning light catches in the fine hair of your body because there is movement and inevitable day because sometimes I need a second body just to keep me on the ground copyright © 1999-2002, e-poets network partners all rights reserved legal statement | tech info | about Book of Voices | contact e-poets