| Do You
It is difficult to imagine life beyond the graveWhen your heart is a poor man’s memorial
 Bearing the names of over fifty men
 You useta slap hands with
 
 
Is everyday beyond the age of 25An unearned bonus
 Are ya in awe of the child
 you thought you’d never live to have
 do ya wish for your kid
 to be as lucky as you
 
 
Are ya scaredSo hurt
 Ya laugh when ya should be outraged
 
 
Do ya daydream about a piece of metal penetrating your scald
 does the phone ringing in the middle of the night
 momentarily stop the world
 
 
does your I’m going to liveby my own means mentality
 taunt your fatalistic prophecy
 
 
when they piss you offwould ya curse a muthafucker
 call’em an asshole to his face
 instead of his back
 piss on their rotten pecan decency
 showing up like firm handshakes
 with soft intentions
 
 
do ya wish that the killing would stopbut can think of no good reason
 for some people to live
 
 
do ya throw fist over conflictsthat a mature tenth grader could solve with words
 do they think you were raised in a cave
 
 
if ya couldwould ya never go to sleep
 while the rest of the world is being cool
 are ya bouncing off the ceilings
 
 
do little kids quietly suspectthat you are a little kid
 do ya feel like a set of brass knuckles
 bagged with a jelly donut
 
 
are ya anxiousdo ya try and remember
 how every picture is placed on every wall
 do ya savor the taste of every bowl of pasta
 are ya always the last one to leave the party
 
 
do ya like to do it slow with your womenwhen you’ve been drinking all night
 do ya drink too much
 
 
does music scentedbeer slanted nights
 temporarily pull the curtains
 on the memorial inside your chest
 
 
do ya wish that your heartwas just a heart.
 
 
 Chuck Perkins
 
 
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